This isn’t easy for me to write. But things just aren’t working out for me. I mean, it was all great in the beginning… the excitement, the newness of it all… and when I was with you, my breath would quicken, my heart would pound, sweaty palms and all… And afterwards, I always felt awakened, lightheaded and even a little queasy. My heart had never felt so open.
But the thing is… you require so much flexibility on my part. I mean, I bend over backwards for you day after day. It’s starting to wear on me. And on top of that, you intimidate me. I’m afraid you’ll break me one day. I just have to wonder how healthy this relationship is.
I’d like to say, “It’s not you, it’s me…” But I think it IS you. I mean, if you would just give me a little more comfort on a daily basis. I need more support. If only you could be more like Ustrasana. Although I know that’s not fair of me to compare you to other asanas.
If only it was so easy… but in reality I know that I need you. You open me. You humble me on a daily basis. So I guess I’ll continue seeing you. You know where to find me. Please, please be gentle with me. I’m fragile.
Yours, always (or at least until I split to 3rd series),