Yesterday I was thinking about the move and the career change to come… which is completely up in the air as I have no idea where or when or even what field I’ll be going into. Of course I’d like to stay in the wine industry, but that’s all dependent on openings and salaries and all that.
I hear people say things like, “My five year plan is to….” and so I started reflecting on where I want to be in 5 years… then I started panicking, so I stopped and instead decided to focus on where I want to be RIGHT NOW. Of course, this has always been one of my weaknesses: I’m great at the here and now, the immediate, but I’m extremely shortsighted when it comes to setting goals and taking small steps towards those longterm goals. I’m more of an “immediate gratification” kind of gal.
And then I started thinking about the yoga teaching gig I’ve got going on. I’ve been offered some early morning slots at one of the studios I teach at… I’d like to have one more class besides the two I have right now, mostly so the students can gain some momentum and have some consistency in their practice rather than practicing Friday and Saturday and then 5 days off… But I don’t think I’m ready to commit to an early morning class as that cuts into my own practice time and I’m not quite sure what commitments I may have once I move… So it may be time to figure out what my 5 year plan for SLOAshtanga is. (That’s what I’m calling myself, by the way…) Why am I teaching? Is it because I love teaching? Or is it because I want to build this community? And what happens when the community is built up? Do I continue teaching? Or do I give up at that point? What is it that I want after 5 years of teaching? Do I want to teach some more? Or am I attempting to pull off what Anne and Philippe did up at Yoga is Youth, namely build a community and a need and wait patiently for an Authorized instructor to come along and take it over for me?
I might need a pen and paper for this one. Some time lines, mind maps, a calculator, a crystal ball (or more realistically, a Magic 8 Ball)… All the tools for planning the future.
See, I can do this “future planning” thing when it involves small life decisions… like the 3-5 hours per week that I dedicate to teaching Ashtanga… But once we get to the career thing, I freeze up.